No success outside of marriage can compensate for not being married.

So this was a quote that my dear friend Carrie said after I told her about the disaster of a mission reunion I had last night.
Mission Reunion = a bunch of people that don't care enough about each other to keep in touch but then are forced into small talk with each other over light refreshments all just to show off their fiance, spouse, or baby.

NO THANKS!!

So....seeing as I have none of those things the phrase was born. I may have a very impressive life outside of being married...but with out that I was a no body in a crowd of people who wanted to show off somebodies.

Meh, I digress.

General Conference is the best time of year. I'm so glad it happens it twice.
I gained so much from it. I love listening to the leaders of our church talk about things that will make us happier and better disciples.

I learned a lot of things I could work on to be better. And such is life according to me. :)

We pet the goats~

Last night was the Utah State Fair!
We all got in free because of a friend of a friend and I'm so glad I went.
We started off petting the goats and sheep and the cows and this humangous steer!

Then we watched this cool hypnotist show. I wanted to volunteer but the guy didn't choose me...Lame.
But the guy was really funny.

Then we walked around for a while and then ended up at the giant slide like I used to ride in all the elementary school fairs.

Good Times.

Just Friends

Remember how I used to hate the word friend (in a girl guy context?)
I mean....I'm always the friend. And for a long time I've resented it.
But I think maybe I'm growing up....or maybe its that for the first time in a long time, I've found
a friend that actually gives more than I do but in the same way I do.
I think I used to want to feel needed. But it is way better to be provided for than to be needed.
I don't know if this is complicated to understand...but I am always feeling shorted in relationships because their not what I want them to be or because I'm giving so much and the other person is not.
For once in my life, someone is giving me more than I am used to receiving and guess what?!
I LOVE IT!!!
I'm not going to say who this person is because its not important right now.
But just know that I am happy.
And being happy is a great feeling.

Live'n, Love'n, and Laugh'n

I am having the time of my life!
Becky Fewster is my new bff. She is great and we have a ton of fun together.
We have had all sorts of fun adventures!
Lava Hot Springs, then a cruise and now we are going to be teaching Prashant the gospel.
Oh and ps. I'm moving in with her too.
Yeah life in the fast lane. LOVE it! Its so great having a girl best friend again.
We found out that we share the same mantra Live Love Laugh, and I think we are doing a great job living it.

Happy Father's Day!!

This Father's Day I have been thinking about the blessing of having my father. I recognize that there are many who do not share this because of an emotional or physical separation. I am not able to aptly discuss the remorse that I feel for these people who are close to me. For I have seen their pains and sorrows because of that separation, and it has made me feel that much more ungrateful for the privilege of having my father. How often I take for granted the opportunities I have to share my testimony with him, to counsel with him about life, to cry to him when I'm hurt or frustrated, to ping him while he's at work to talk about my job, or if something's bothering me. I have recently witnessed many father's being taken from their families for one reason or another and what an awful trial to bear.

It is an interesting thing, my relationship between my father and me the daughter and while it is imperfect, I cherish the perfect moments more than he may ever know.

Man Strike!

This is not a bitter move. This is not out of frustration.
This is just because I get it now. Finally.

I realize that it is my own feelings towards men that breaks my heart. Not them.
It is the idea that the more I try the more I fail and so if I don't try I won't fail and some day some one will try that I won't be opposed to.

Someday the timing will work out and the magic I call a relationship will occur.
I won't have to want them first because they will be striving to find me and win my heart.
So this Man Strike just means that I'm not going to try any more. I'm not going to put off what I want to do in hopes that the someone will come over one night. I'm not going to wait around for people I'm gonna do what I want to do when I want to do it and I'm going to be anxiously engaged in good.

I realize that I waste time crushing on guys that have no interest in me. A crush is just that....a one sided affection that goes no where because duh...it's one sided.

So NO MORE!!
Come find me!

There is beauty all around

So today I worked on my room a little bit. 

Elder Costa referenced Elder Schweizer's talk when he spoke of our homes and the walls there in. 

They both taught us that our walls are an altar of teaching and that we must make our homes an inspiring place to live. What we put on our walls is very Important. 

He spoke about the Temple as a standard for how are homes should be, feel, look, and sound. 

So today when I got home I got to work decorating my room. Its not finished and I'm going to need to invest a little bit but I already feel better about my living space. 

After being sooo spiritually uplifted all day, I went to a game night and was in rare form. Unfortunately the blond in my genes came out several times tonight and jokes were flying about my blunders. Friction and Velociraptors are just a few. (You had to be there. )

Anyway, now I'm moving into my routine this week. So hopefully everything will be great and happy.